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We are spiritual beings having a human experience. – Teilhard de Chardin

The Feeling of Home

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Before I moved to Germany Steffi and I corresponded quite a bit via email, chat and Skype calls. On one occasion she shared a photo taken with her cell phone.

The picture is the street near the flat here showing a few cars, a bicyclist, a couple of beautiful cherry trees in full blossom. A nice picture, fersure.

I looked at it and it looked very familiar. It felt very familiar. It felt like home. Not like some place I used to live, but rather home in a strange and deep metaphysical sense.

I stared and stared at this picture trying to figure out the feeling it gave me. Something there resonated with me in a really nice, heartfelt way.

Looking at it today I thought it could be the color of the trees and the construction and color of the building in the background that reminds me of my grandparent’s property and home in St. Elmo, Illinois from my childhood. I’m not quite sure.

It doesn’t feel quite the same now as it did four years ago when Steffi first sent it to me. It feels more like a memory of a memory – something kind of far removed from my current experience.

I can say though, in all sincerity and with a big hug going out to my American friends and family, I really do feel quite at home here in Hamburg.

I’m not sure why this is so. Hamburg is a big, busy harbor town – whatever that is. It’s about business mostly.

I’m not big into the “culture” of cities. When I hear “New York City is blah blah blah” or “Paris is this or that” or “You find the best this or that in Seattle” I notice these are things that don’t reach me.

I notice things on a more intangible level. Something that one can take for granted. A feeling of groundedness. Something familiar and settled.

In German I could use the word gemütlichkeit – which means coziness, friendliness. For me that’s a valid adjective in this case.

I certainly understand that many other folks would find coupling gemütlichkeit and Hamburg to be just plain crazy. I can only say that this is my experience. I especially noticed this on our recent WWWP5k walk. (Steffi wrote about this recently on our Herzensreise blog.)

Whatever brings home to our heart – a place, a song, a mountain, a river, a smell, a favorite dish – being there in that moment is a very nice feeling.

When I allow my attention to stay with that feeling, it feels good. It feels good and right to notice you are home.

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